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everytime my mind starts to think of you or anything close to reminding me of u, id tell myself no. sometimes id even say it out loud, no no no. and the thoughts would gradually sink in until i feel nothing but a remotesense of normalcy. but sometimes th memory wud b too powerful and before i could stop myself a heavysob fills my throat. like when i was thinking of the beautiful jewelreies i have. and how the necklace u gave mewas the prettiest one of all. i'd wear it everyday, even when im flirting around, just to remind myself. thats it.as a reminder. of what? i dont know. but it felt like a part of me. and now that ive let it go and left it on the dressing table, i dont have the reminder anymore. i dont have anything to look forward to. im alone.