delusional

sometimes we go back to the times when things were easier. when the sun shone brighter and the air felt lighter- happy, perhaps what used to be.
and we'd wonder, what happened? why did things change?
when truth is, nothing changed. you wanted change. you anticipated for it to occur.
the sun was never brighter nor the air, lighter. you were just fooling yourself into thinking that things were fine back then. really, it wasnt. it was already messy from the start.

sordid saturday

work is piling up up and up!
actually no its been the same old pile i just have not budged from where ive been sitting.
which is on my sad pathetic ass.
why should i get good grades? rather for the satisfaction i get once i please my parents.. and perhaps that miniscule feeling that im still loved by god ergo, he gives me a chance for some momentary happiness.
whatshits.
u come online and i just stare at yr name. blaghghhhaah

missing

the one who got awayyyyyy

blah

last nite, after hanging out with my friends and amusing them with my tales of dilemmas, it made me wonder, maybe having that many friends isnt rly a good thing after all. sometimes it just makes u more confused stressed out and frowned upon. i dunno.... depends.

the one who read my mind

" come on, freida. Who doesnt feel empty or down or lost. i'm not saying you havent been thru alot in yr life, cause everyone has. i've been thru alot more than i think of. and what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger. sure, fuck. that's easy to say, alot easier said than done, no? but that's the whole point. i guess life was never meant to be easy, not for us at least. i know yr pretty confused right now, not about this message but about everything that's going on. And i'm certain you dont really know what to do, but dont just go with the flow or jump into things just for the sake of it for now. you know what i'm talking about.yr a smart girl...."

what do u do when the devil understands u so much?

sweet home

first thing as i stepped in : cried my head off.

i hope ur fine

it is the sacrifice u make in life that makes it worth it

"im doing this for YOU."