done

out of tears. out of thoughts. out of words. and ur out

strong

everytime my mind starts to think of you or anything close to reminding me of u, id tell myself no. sometimes id even say it out loud, no no no. and the thoughts would gradually sink in until i feel nothing but a remotesense of normalcy. but sometimes th memory wud b too powerful and before i could stop myself a heavysob fills my throat. like when i was thinking of the beautiful jewelreies i have. and how the necklace u gave mewas the prettiest one of all. i'd wear it everyday, even when im flirting around, just to remind myself. thats it.as a reminder. of what? i dont know. but it felt like a part of me. and now that ive let it go and left it on the dressing table, i dont have the reminder anymore. i dont have anything to look forward to. im alone.

green tea

everyone looks the same these days
its gettin old people

am i happy?
pretty much...

" in the end it all comes down to what helps u sleep at nite.

whether its a strong sense of denial or ... "

whenever i have faith u give me a reason not to

wonder wonder

" i want someone who i can talk to about anything at all" he said one day
is that even possible? to have that special someone who ur not afraid of telling ur deepest darkest secret. and when u tell them ur problems ur not worried that they'll judge u. could it possible exist between two lovers?
" do u believe that two people could get married without going thru the whole relationship phase?" he asked me today
" what.. u mean two close friends who suddenly decide to get married?"
" yeah. but they dont do th boyfriend girlfriend things."
its a pretty good idea actually. u fight less.
" yeah... and there's less pressure."
sometimes when we're in a couple we tend to think that we must 'act' like a couple. so sometimes it can be superficial. its taken me this long to finally conclude that i can never confide in you. i just cant.


does being able to talk frankly and so openly with someone make that as 'chemistry'?
is it not normal for couples to have filtered communication?
if the answers yes then does that mean we're not meant to be?