Monday, May 23, 2011
Note of precaution..
Sunday, May 1, 2011
post break up
thing is i aint even angry at nobody. just angry at myself for stooping so low, and inflicting pain on myself.
like eminem said lah :
'Cause sometimes you feel tired,
feel weak, and when you feel weak, you feel like you wanna just give up.
But you gotta search within you, you gotta find that inner strength
and just pull that shit out of you and get that motivation to not give up
and not be a quitter, no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face and collapse.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
envision
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
girl vs girl
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
world is a jungle
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
" okay. snow." you said. it obviously wasnt something you'd conjurred at the top of your head seeing as you had just returned from a ski holiday in Korea.
Just today in the midst of half brushing my teeth and half in-reverie, it suddenly came to me.
Life. It just snowballs past and it wont stop or wait for you. Collecting dirt, stones and scars at the same time. It starts off pure and innocent or – fresh snow, as they’d call it. Thick and untouched. Nobody knows how deep they go nor how shallow they actually are off the surface of the earth. All they see is the glistening whiteness. Ive wondered, is white even a colour? Or is it just nothingness. Kind of like the clouds you see in the sky. They're so solid against the blue background it almost looks as if you can touch the white cotton candy. But when you're in a plane and it swooshes past you, then you realise, no its just evaporated air. Snowballs make me think of an avalanche. Or perhaps just a rolling ball. Life itself is a rolling ball cum avalanche. You go through life, and go through all these experiences, picking up a layer of debris at every place to end up as this huge movie in motion. A walking cinema. A walking book. We all have our own stories. Whats yours? To this day I keep wondering...
Monday, June 28, 2010
happy birthday to me
Its 7.46 am and apart from the hustle and bustle from the two maids downstairs, everything else is quiet and asleep. Not quite sure what exactly stirred me from my sleep but I woke up without any anger or discontent so that must be a good sign. Do I feel slightly older? Not really. Okay fine maybe a little. Although my pubescent-like zit-spotted skin certainly is doing a bad job at displaying so. Usually a spot would ruin my day the instant I spot it looking back at me in the mirror (pun intended), but not today. Today I feel calm. And also carrying a bit of a back ache perhaps cos I’d slept on my back the whole night. I’m not one who often throws eminently big parties and invite gulps and gulps of names as I find that there is nothing scarier and nerve wracking than being in the spotlight. But a small luncheon with maybe five of my comrades would be just fine. Being nineteen feels… stuck. Stuck in the middle between childhood and adulthood. The big 20. My last teen. What should I do to commemorate this?
OH god I just realized that… I’ve already become a grandma with back pains